A little background info for those who are curious:We were friends online and met in person last October. We got along great, and he was really into me but I wasn't, not at first. Then a week or so went by and I found myself developing feelings for him, while he became hot and cold. At times he'd be super sweet and talkative, then he'd become distant and cold, not replying to my messages for days. And he'd switch back and forth.
We would make plans to meet again several times, but something would come up and it'd just never end up happening.
A month or so after he started to warm up again and would text me daily, and our friendship grew.
We were going to meet again just before Valentine's Day, because he was moving, but I cancelled plans and asked if he'd like to meet another day instead. He never replied back. Instead, he went after some other girl and they drove across the border to my city (he's from the US, I'm Canadian).
They spent the night here at a hotel, then left. He didn't even tell me. I was totally heart broken.
So I texted him as soon as my friend saw on his Facebook that this "new girl" of his was checking into places from here LOL.
I texted him that I was free if he wanted to meet up. He didn't reply. I texted him again and he finally replied by saying he didn't have the time and was going to spend the remaining days he had with family. He didn't even mention his gf or that they were here! Lol
I lost my cool. I told him to get his butt over here and he couldn't just leave like this without seeing me again. He said he was really sorry but ran out of time and sold his car too. Wtf?! Lol. Excuses, excuses. I knew he was with his new gf and they were on their way back to the US. She was updating her status and tagging him every few minutes LOL.
So then I decided to just come clean about everything and lay it all out on the line.
I thanked him for coming into my life and making me so happy in the short amount of time we spent together. He replied back by thanking me and said that his life won't be the same if it weren't for me ~ whatever the hell he meant by that.
Then I asked him if he ever had feelings for me and told him to answer me honestly.
He said he cared about me deeply, but knew nothing could happen because our cultures were so different. (I mentioned to him when he was here that I came from a very conservative background and never drank or smoked and such, but I was open to it. I'm 20 btw, just in my "blossoming" stage now lol, he's 19.)
Maybe that turned him off. I don't know, but that's just stupid if he'd leave me just because of that. :/
Then I confessed my feelings to him. I wasn't even thinking straight. I told him how anything could have been possible if he had just opened up to me. He said there were a lot of shocking things I didn't know about him but he didn't want to tell me because they were private.
After that I ended everything with him, deleted his number and blocked him on all social media. I don't think he saw that coming LOL.
But I think it was good that I did that, because it helped me get over him more quickly.
The first week following that incident was absolutely dreadful and painful for me. I couldn't eat or sleep and fell into a depression.
But I got through it and I'm doing a lot better now. I'm still hurting a bit but I know things will get better.
Honestly, I think he was just scared of his feelings. He's a little boy, he's still immature and didn't know how to deal with it.
And he was only using that girl to get over me.
Just yesterday I found out they broke up LOL.
Whatever they had didn't even last a month.
They untagged one another from every picture and post on Facebook and took their relationship status down. I find that hilarious. I kinda figured it wasn't anything serious.
But I don't want him now. My feelings for him aren't what they used to be. The damage is already done, so if he were to want something with me now or in the future, I won't take him.
I know now he's not the kind of person I would want for a serious, mature, stable relationship with. No thank you haha. Plus I don't trust him anymore. But he's great to have as a fun-loving friend.
I have a feeling he feels really bad about what happened between us. I am willing to forgive him if he owned up to his immaturity, but I won't ever forget what he did. I unblocked him now but he remains deleted from my friends list.
Thanks to everyone who took the time to read this long post. I know you're thinking how messed up this situation is.